It's 5 am. I am sitting at work ready to go home and lift my swollen ankles (I might be dying, I donno....). I have two puzzles going at home and am looking forward to a long string of work days in February.
Luckily it will help pay for my trip to PA and the various cocktails and sundries I will be enjoying.
I haven't been doodling, but I did do this really miss-proportioned dude the other day at work.
This day started with a lot - I dropped a bottle of epsom soak on my floor and cleaned it up with a towel which I then attempted to wash - holy bubbles. It will get at least another two washes before it's through. After work I will be finishing the clean up and maybe doing a little pre-sleep puzzling. This last hour at work we have all slowly lost it. Our traveling dispatcher is rewriting "Call Me Maybe" to "Don't Call Me Maybe" for dispatch. I do have to say - it works. I have had a lot of genuine laughter today thanks to my coworkers. I just hope the next few days go by slower and that I get enough sleep tonight to not feel like I am about to crash at work. The new meds gave me a boost of energy for the first few weeks, but now I am falling asleep at work again. BOOO.
Here is to some decent sleep and the deswelling of my massive "being fat and sitting all day cankles."
Life isn't all that bad, right? Sometimes we take it step by step. I sometimes wake up embarrassed to be me; realizing that the men that I loved and lost escaped and got out before I became this blob of fat and depression; feeling that I am a mediocre talent who is lonely and will probably die here in Ohio and not be remembered...but sometimes I also wake up and realize I am a decent human being trying my best and I would never say those things to other people so I shouldn't say them to myself. We have to do the best with what we have, and even if everything feels like it's falling apart - I know I am a good hearted woman who can make a difference in people's lives.
Be creative - no matter what people think (even yourself).
Much love from some rando on the internet to another rando on the internet.
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