I cannot believe April is mostly done already. My mood has been about the same as it has been. It's been a rough few years in so many ways. Perimenopause is a killer. I am a fat blob of a human with a foggy brain who mostly just wants to sleep. I am exhausted, and broke, and sad. One of those will be fixed after the summer of insane overtime I am about to participate in due to having a loss of several people at work AND our only trainee. I hope we all can remain in good spirits. For me - I will be thinking about the ability to buy a new washer and dryer at the end of it all and maybe get dressed up and take myself out for a nice dinner and fancy cocktails so I can try and feel human again. I want to go back to a city somewhere and experience something not Ohio.
Has anyone invented a self esteem pill yet? lol
I have gotten the chance to iPad doodle once in a while. It has been keeping my creative brain flowing. I have been posting them on TikTok for the most part, but it's mostly for my own amusement. Like this blog is.... and I am - amusing myself.
Today as I was rummaging around I was reminded of the hilarity of Garth Marenghi's Darkplace, and I have been rewatching episodes. It's one of those shows that has so many subtle things happen that watching it over actually works in your favor.
Today I laughed very hard at someone who pronounced Schweppes - Schwa-pee-pees.
In short, find your joy. Find something beautiful in the day, even if you are a brain foggy lump-troll like me. I still believe in love and joy, and even if it is hard for me to get maybe I can help others find it - and that's a joy all in its own.
Plus, there is Schwa-pee-pees.
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